Here we are, not even 5 weeks into 2025, and work has started spiralling out of control again. I need to stop for a bit to regain control, get on top of some things, and take a moment to recalibrate.
Also, I desperately need an assistant. Now accepting applications here!
Spiralling, again
From the outset, I want to say that this is not a post about self pity. I count myself lucky every single day that I have a business I can call my own, the most wonderful team you can ever imagine, working in a field that I love and makes me happy.
It is because I love what I do so deeply that I work so hard at it.
And it is probably because of this that I find myself, yet again, overloaded, overwhelmed and stretched beyond my capacity.
Those who have followed along for a while would know that things have changed quite a lot around here in the last 4 years. Back in 2020, the RecipeTin world was a quiet one-girl-and-her-dog operation who hid behind the computer screen with a small support team that worked from home.
These days, I have a team of 9. I have a food bank (RecipeTin Meals) where 4 properly trained chefs work in a commercial kitchen and make over 130,000 homemade meals each year (plus desserts!) that we donate every day to the vulnerable.
I’ve written two cookbooks, both of which I partly blame for this new world in which we now operate. Because it turns out you get a bit of attention when the first book breaks records, then the second book breaks those records. 😉 Honestly, who knew books could do that??!
We do public events – cooking, hosting reader dinners, meet-and-greets, fundraisers for charities we want to support – both here in my hometown of Sydney and interstate, and do segments on TV shows. The fun stuff!
Behind the scenes, I have the responsibilities that come with having your own business. Administration, taxes, paperwork, corporate filings, HR, legal matters, business inquiries, making decisions about “what next” for the business. Looking after the team, organising team events, trying to keep up regular communication with a team that works from many different locations.
And with RTM being a registered charity, with that comes additional obligations, like regular board meetings which include independent directors and annual audits.
And lastly, let’s add to that, creating the recipes that I share on this website. Plus photographing them, editing the photos, filming them, writing up the posts, and testing the recipes.
I share this not to complain or boast about workload. I don’t think the latter is something to boast about anyway, because I’m here today, putting my hand up and saying – I don’t want to spiral back into that trap again of being completely overloaded, overwhelmed and stretched beyond my capacity.
I can’t. It’s unhealthy. While 2024 was a year of incredible highs, I ended it in a bad state of sheer exhaustion. I spent the entire 10 days of the Christmas break recovering, sleeping 12 to 15 hours every day. Unheard of for me – 6 hours is my norm, 8 hours would be a dream!
But spiralling again, I am.
My instinct in these situations in recent years has been grit my teeth, put my head down, tell my team “I need to go underground for a while” then ruthlessly plough through the work alone – developing, testing, shooting and getting through all the “businessy” stuff.
This time, though, I’m going to do something about it – and make positive changes!
I need help!
I always tell people I have “the best team anyone could be lucky enough to have” (and, I swear, the funniest too!). But the roles they fill are largely not front end at what we call “HQ” where the recipe development, testing and shooting gets done for this website.
And I am drowning. Absolutely drowning.
I need to rebuild my team. But first, I need the time to clear my head so I can set a clear vision for what my goals are and the strategy to achieve them, the people I need to make it happen.
And so today, I’m writing this post as a means of holding myself accountable (to myself!) to action two things:
Hire a kick-ass assistant with a great attitude whose job description is to make my life easier. Apply here!
Take a break from publishing new recipes for [two to three] weeks. Use the time to recalibrate, have quiet time to think about the next steps for the business, what I want to do, my strengths and weaknesses (SWOT analysis!), catch up on sleep, lavish Dozer with attention (like every day😂), and recruit my new assistant (yes, recruiting well takes time, so much time!).
Triggered by a cookie 🍪
If you’re wondering where this all came from, it happened yesterday and it was triggered by a cookie.
Today’s post was supposed to be a chocolate chip cookie recipe that I’ve been working on feverishly for several weeks – and stupidly (now I realise!), rather publicly as I jokingly shared fails and successes on social media.
32 batches in, over 250 cookies baked to get to the cookie I was aiming for, tested then tweaked then re-tested to make it as foolproof as possible.
I’ve filmed it, photographed it, I’ve even mostly written the post up, complete with all the learnings, pitfalls, and confidently declared to Herron, my video editor – “We have take off! 🚀🍪🍪”
Then yesterday, I made it again, just to test it one last time – and it wasn’t what it was supposed to be. Did I mis-measure something? Is the oven temperature off? Did I put the wrong timer on?
This was the moment
I frantically browned more butter, intent on doing another batch, calculating in my head – “if I get it in the fridge by 1 pm, I can do the short-chill test batch at 6 pm then the proper batch at 11 pm, which will finish cooling by 12.30 am so I can pack it away”.
This was followed by the thought “OK, I’ll make the dough here at work, then do groceries for the team breakfast tomorrow, drop into the building site on the way back so I can catch Nigel before he leaves, then I better duck home and walk Dozer so he can cool down before dinner. Then I’ll bring the groceries back to the office and prep for breakfast tomorrow, take the cookie dough home to bake tonight. I need to speak to Inggrid about cashflow forecasting, and oh crap, when is the next RTM board meeting? Ohhhh…and I forgot I have that 5.30 appointment, how much will she hate me if I reschedule? 😭 And I mustn’t forget to do my slides for the team presentation tomorrow – and UGH, the air con at the office is broken, it’s so insanely hot, we need to find another location for the meeting. I need to tell everyone we’re moving, and I better get than air con fixed, asap!”
And that was the moment I realised – I need to stop. Recalibrate. Take a break.
And use my time to find an assistant!
I will be back!
So, I’m taking a break from publishing new recipes, for 2 to 3 weeks to catch up on work that has piled up, think about what my next steps are and the team I need to make it happen.
Next week is already full with an exciting TV filming day (more soon!) and we have applications piled up already for the job vacancy which, to be honest, was advertised a week ago. Sharing it on my website is one of many little things that have slipped my mind. 🙂
My new assistant is the first important step to initiate change around here. I do not take recruitment lightly. I am very protective of my team, and the culture I’ve worked so hard to create and maintain.
So we need to get started on the recruitment because it will take quite a bit of time to get through the applications. And in case you are wondering, yes I am getting help from a recruitment company, I am just approaching it a little differently this time. Because this business is unique, my team is unique, I am unique! We find we don’t fit in moulds – and that’s ok, we like being different.
If you made it this far, thank you for listening to my ramblings. To be honest, it’s been pretty therapeutic, forcing myself to put thoughts down that have been whirling like crazy in my head in a semi-orderly fashion!
Bear with me. I will be back! Including that darn choc chip cookie recipe. It will not defeat me! – Nagi x
PS I expect I won’t be able to stay off social media completely because it’s my digital playground. I’m not cool enough for TikTok but I’m frequently putting real-life snippets on Instagram and Facebook.
Life of Dozer
Video from the fundraiser at SASH Ryde that Dozer and I attended last week to help raise funds for Sophie’s Legacy! I know there’s smiles and laughter – and it really was SO great meeting everyone – but there is a serious message behind it so I hope you get a chance to watch it:
If you’d like to support this cause, you can donate here or sign the petition here to help lobby for change. But even just talking about it, as I say in the video, means we are raising awareness and with that comes the start of change.
Dozer and I thank you for your support. – N x
PS Yes, I dropped to the floor, grabbed Dozer and took this selfie not 2 seconds ago!
Take care Nagi. Do what is necessary for you (&Dozer). With your values i think you need someone who has similar values & attitude but maybe more chilled. (Yin & Yang). If they have passion, skills can be taught, brought out or honed. Good luck sweet. Heal well
Hey missy you take all the time you need. I’m sure everyone understands what yiu are going through. You doing an amazing job. I for one, am very proud of you. It’s good to take some time out for you and Dozer. Look after yourself and take care. Wushing you all the best in finding an Assistant who will be as awesome as you and your team. Thank you for the amazing work of supplying meals to people who need it. You are a very generous, loving person. Once again take care. ❤️🌹
If I was in your country/area I would apply at the drop of a hat. Sounds like my dream job. Hope you sort it all out and are back with us soon. You are the most important ingredient in this recipe. Take care. Wes.
Take all the time you need, we aren’t going anywhere 💐❤️
So what if we don’t get any recipes for 2/3 or even 10 weeks. It won’t be the end of our worlds and we won’t stop loving you for who you are. We have your cookbooks anyhow and your online recipes so we won’t starve. You don’t owe us but you do owe yourself and Dozer. Slow down lovely lady, take all the time you need. Much love xoxo
DEFINITELY take a break, Girl! Don’t wait a minute longer. We women tend to go until we are at the breaking point or have already collapsed. I know whereof I speak. Been there, done that. Forget the tee shirt, I’ve got the tattoos! (An autoimmune response doesn’t go away just because the stress stops. It has a life of its own.) You have nothing to prove. We can dine off of your wonderful recipes and sparkling guidance for six months or more. We won’t forget about you. So don’t YOU forget about you. Sending warmest love from Chichester on the South Coast of England. 🙏🏻💞
Hi Nagi you are an amazing person. You think of everyone it’s time to think of yourself and your own health. We will wait patiently for your return to what you love the best and what we love your recipes and your lovely emails and all about dozer.
Be sure to take as much time as you need hope you find a great assistant to share your load.
Take care of yourself before you burn out. Tonight I made the crunchy chicken tacos for the grandchildren and they devoured them. Thank you we love your recipes and the way you present the information is terrific taking into account different ways people learn. That’s from an adult learning teacher!
You time is important (and so is Dozer time lol). Take the time you need, safe in the knowledge that the two books along with all the recipes here on the site is more than enough to keep your fans busy in the kitchen while you rest up and get some non-cooking things done. If I still lived in Sydney I’d be throwing my hat in the ring for the job, but alas it’s a bit of a drive from Tamworth LMAO.
Take care, slow down and breathe 🙂
Nagi
I’ve enjoyed your recipes for years.
Be kind to yourself and choose the things that you do best & make you happiest to do yourself and then delegate the rest. (& I mean all of it)!
It happens to everyone who expands quickly- that they lose sight or can’t find time to do the thing that makes them happiest & end up stretched, stressed (& broken).❤️❤️
Best
Slow down Nagi! We love you but don’t want you burnt out!
Nagi, Nagi, Nagi we love you. You’re drowning in our love. I hope you get to enjoy some quiet time without external pressures. Give Dozer a big cuddle <3
I feel for you. My husband is in same situation after working non stop for too long. Take time for yourself. Remember you are the biggest project you’ll ever work on. Restart reset and refocus as many times as you have too. Just do t give up.
Get better soon. Sleep is a powerful drug in times like this.
You are the bomb
I’ve both your cookbooks and followed your email posts for over 3 years . I run my own business for the last 30 years and know all about stress and overload . Step back and spend time with the ones you love (DOZER) and time for yourself . I think you are SuperWoman . Look after your personal and mental health is best for you and your biggest fan ME .
stay well and we will all be happy. Take as long as you need to get on top of things as the volume of work you have already produced is more than enough to work through for a while. Being stressed is not a nice feeling so just step off for a while we will all still be here when you are ready no matter how long that takes.
Nagi I have nothing but admiration for you. You are incredible but you need to reenergise. We, your supports, will be waiting until such time you feel able to step up again, in the mean time I wish you only well.
You do an amazing job, Nagi, and I’m sure your devotion to perfection adds to your stress. Thank you so much for all you do and I trust you will find an amazing assistant.
Go well with your doggie.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for taking the time to write this! It’s so important to acknowledge that burnout is real and its ok to ask for help and to take a step back. Hope you find an amazing assistant real soon. And a final thank you for all your amazing recipes x
I think you are fantastic, take care of yourself and Dozer. I am sure we will all be glad to see you after you have pampered yousef for a while
Best wishes. Val